Overdue

My due date was 4 days ago on Thursday, March 4th... still waiting on baby.
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So I haven't been writing much. Mainly because I've been feeling more and more run down, heavy, frustrated and so on. It's tiring and disheartening. With Moira, I ended up having a c-section at 38 weeks and 6 days. I've never been as pregnant as I am right now at 40 weeks and 4 days (and counting).

At my last midwife appt I was 39 weeks and 5 days. My cervix wasn't at all ready or changed. Now I could go anytime, and labour could start before my cervix changes, but I'm feeling a little depressed at my current state. My primary midwife starts on vacation today unfortunately. This means that I'll have the student midwife, who has been seeing me almost since the beginning, and either my second or third back up midwife - both of whom are very nice and I've met (though Darcy hasn't met the third).

At least this baby is head down.

If I don't go into labour by Thursday, I have an appt for a biophysical profile ultrasound that morning and a non-stress test with an OB consult that evening in the hospital. At that point, the midwives and OB (the Dr who did the c-section for Moira should be the one there to consult) will discuss the results for me and decide on a course of action. The options will be either to induce me right away, wait a bit and then maybe induce me, or go straight to having another c-section. In any case, they won't let me go past 10 days overdue, which is this Sunday.

I'm really hoping not to have to have another c-section. The idea of going into labour is more than a little daunting. I haven't experienced it before and I have no idea how I'll handle the pain. I would like to avoid the c-section to reduce my recovery time from the birth. Whether I can manage the birth if induced, which may lead to stronger contractions, I don't know. I'd rather not have an epidural but may feel differently in that moment :)

So baby needs to get a move on and my labour needs to start. So far I've felt some cramps/pains in my lower abdomen (hopefully my cervix starting to change) but nothing else. My mom came down on Tuesday and has been helping, especially with Moira. I don't have a lot of nerves or energy left to manage her exuberant self all the time, though I feel bad that we aren't getting out much. She's absolutely thrilled to have Grandma down to play with, however, so I can't feel too horrible.

Here's hoping my body and baby get going before Thursday...